Sunday, December 30, 2007
:) leave me&go away.
current mood: depressed
tonight, i will cuddle up with my fudgie, silently snuffling under my sheets. it's been a long time since i had time for myself under the sheets. i am NOT doing good. i am NOT doing fine. Oh, go away stupid feeling!
God, save me from this insanity. i am a just meaningless soul. now, i just feel like a child crying because she lost her favourite toy. Oh, go away everyone. this is my rants in the wee hours. if you hate it, LEAVE now. every part of me hurts. even those tiny places, where i didn't know exist, is killing me. i desperately wish i am smiling now. this hurts much more than the pain when i pierce my skin. i am now engulfed in misery, drenched in disappointments and finally, blanketed with disgrace.
OH, go away pain! go away silly feeling! go away misery! go away you!
and i cry now, not because i am sad. but because i know i am stronger than this. what more? i ask now, what more?
i miss being a 5 year old. i want ice-cream and cookies. i want chocolates and sweets. i want to laugh till i shed tears of joy. joke anyone? :)
'fimaaa
❤ imperfectly written at 2:15 AM
