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Saturday, February 28, 2009

:) The Ones That Start With "F"s
current mood: below par

Hours ago, I was blasting music from MBF’s handset, screaming out lyrics of songs on his playlist. As this moment, the handset is on medium, with rather soothing music to keep me company whilst I sit in my incredibly messy room, alone, avoiding the crowd outside. I needed time, to think, to breathe, and to compose.

My head is not doing well again. The theme park, thrill rides and the bombarding brain cells are tiring me out. See, I was never the best. I try my best to please them all, setting aside my own interest, yet it all wasn’t enough. It never was in the first place. As much as I loathe it, the agony was those diamond droplets falling off the side of her lids, making its way down to the ground. I disappointed them.

& somehow, I miss this.
Last 19th, My shinning star turned 6. Happy Birthday IFU. (:

UNO, it amazes me what you see in a girl who has nothing. It amazes me that you chose to love a girl who was no one. It amazes me that we’re where we are. ILY.
Dear world, all I want now, is for MBF and them family to be happy. Please. Pretty please?

`fimaaa
❤ imperfectly written at 11:34 PM

Sunday, February 15, 2009

:) Squeezing Out The Brain Juice
current mood: drenched

I am slowly rowing the boat as I am reaching my final checkpoint. Ironically, amidst the water, I feel dehydrated and bushed. Tired from all the pain and agony, I find myself adding on the exhaustion by planning for the road that lies ahead after that final turn. Engulfing me is fear of not being where I placed myself in my wildest imagination. I expected too much from myself; failing over again to understand that expectations leads to disappointments. Yet, this is not the time for fear, disappointments or weakness. I have to drag myself to make it through the weeks. I know that the weeks will turn to days, and days to hours, and hours to minutes; and soon it will all be over. No more projects, no more test. Next, it’s hello working life.

By the way, I made a big blunder today and caused trouble for him, yet he smiles and say ILY. :)


UNO, as I sat there by your side, watching every line in your face curling, every mussel twitching, my mind played images of us since a year ago. It was beautiful, not perfect but it was perfectly imperfect for me. Excatly a year ago you did someting amazing, and when asked about it today, you simply blew my mind with your answer.

"I don't regret anything and I love seeing you with me like this."

ILY today, more than I did yesterday.
Dear World, so how was YOUR day?

Ooh, for you who did celebrate, Happy Valentine's. :)

‘fimaaa


❤ imperfectly written at 1:10 AM

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

:) Conversations
current mood: hehe,hoho.

When he spills his heart and she’s lost for words. That is when time stops and they stand still, loving each moment.

She: Baby, what do you want for us in the future?
He: I want us to last, to be soul-partners.
She: Soul mates?
He: Yes. Soul mates. If it is possible, I want that with you.
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She: Maybe when we decide to stay together, before starting a family; we can get a small apartment.
He: But that's hard baby.
She: Why?
He: Because you and me, we're already a family.
_________________________________________


We were high, like Shakespeare in love.

UNO, maybe I love showing you off. HAAA. (:
Dear world, let's live in dreams till the clouds fall on us. Good night you.
❤ imperfectly written at 1:42 AM

Thursday, February 5, 2009

:) Loosing Something Precious
current mood: pissed

When I turned 19, one of my best gift was a one button A/X coat given by the boyfriend himself. The coat was beautiful, with grey sweatshirt material on the inside and black cotton on the outside. It fitted nicely and I had it on me at least 3 times a week. It became a part of me.

2 days ago, as I was busy in the school lab, printing my materials, rushing through time for my project submission, I carelessly placed my birthday gift on a chair beside me. After minutes of printing and compiling my stuff all together, I packed my bag and went off. Before leaving the lab, I glanced back at my seat to ensure that I left nothing behind. THERE WAS NOTHING.

I left the lab, submitted my project. Next on my schedule was to prepare for my test and sit for my test. Later that day, then it occurred to me that I was missing something. I was not at any point of the day holding on to my birthday present since I left the lab.

I rushed down to the lab and as I predicted it was gone. I know I was careless but I swear I did not leave it behind. I vividly remember turning and seeing nothing. It then occurred to me, some Chinese girls passed my desk before leaving the lab. So, you put the pieces together.

Boyfriend and myself, are both equally pissed and upset about this incident. If you happen to see a girl wearing this particular coat, please call me.

The details of the coat :

  • Brand: Armani Exchange
  • Colour:Black
  • Size: S
  • One front button (button is black plastic)
  • Has a grey sweatshirt interior with white printed designs (& the word "Armani Exchange")
  • & if you lift the collar around the neck, there are blue patterns on it. (it's my favourite part of it)

So, will you help? :(

UNO, I am sorry for this incident. Thank you for making me smile when I was down. ILY.
Dear World, I loathe loosing things. I am such a scatterbrain. *dush*

`fimaaa
❤ imperfectly written at 1:13 AM

Monday, February 2, 2009

:) ILY
current mood: sleepy

Just a note before bedtime.

ILY, for all the times you've cracked your brains for our dates, for all the first(s) that we both shared, for the times you wiped off my tears, for laughing at my lamest jokes, for holding my hand when I look the ugliest, for making me yours.

ILY, for the time you said "remind me to never leave you", for doing the things we do when we say our good byes, for hanging on the phone even if we have nothing to say, for telling me that you hate me just because I am not beside you, for being mine and staying this way.

Many moments were lived with you being my favourite person. However, I cannot deny that when we argue, you will be my least favourite person. Even so, I still do care about you.

Mhd Erwan Sam, ILY. Enough said.
Dear world, good night.

`fimaaa
❤ imperfectly written at 2:52 AM

Sunday, February 1, 2009

:) the Random update
current mood: blergh.

I am currently, on my bed at 6 PM in the evening of this Sunday, 1st February 2009, still in my Joker Tee that I used out yesterday, dreading my life with my project due 9AM tomorrow and a couple of tests in the next 2 days, which of both the project and tests, I have yet to start and study for. I plead guilty of blogging at this time, but I needed a breather.
And I can gladly say, if its God's willing, I'll be graduating by March and out of that school by then. HEHE.

While all this is happening every known second to me, I still consider myself lucky. MBF has been my happy pills lately. Having him a daily dose is the best medicine. He makes me happy as I have made him, at least I think I made him happy. :)

On another note, until I have pledge to become a daily blogger, do not expect this blog to be the best blogs you've clicked on. & that, is just my style. My blog, has no need for your approval; its just my mind speaking up. I loathe beings who mocks the blogs of others or beings who are just dumb enough to not type their names on the tag board when they critique a writer. I reckon beings as such need to stop and start living their wasted life properly. What say you?

& I need to do updates like this regularly; it helps me think about my life,what I WANT to share to my readers and improve my typing skills.

UNO,*eeee* we had a fantastic year don't you agree? More so, please. :)
DEAR WORLD, dummdeedumm. I am restless, can you tell?

`fimaaa
❤ imperfectly written at 6:44 PM