❤ the lunatic one & that story she once told.

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

:) changes
current mood: odd

I walked a weird path the other day. Something about it seems oddly familiar. I felt time travel, back to a year ago and in split seconds I reminded myself that it was a different path all together. I gathered my strength while walking through what seems like a lifetime of changes. I have always despised changes.
Nevertheless, this will be alright; at least that is what I am telling myself. Even MBF tells me that. :)

&yes, I hate lawyers with an arse for attitude. CHILL MAN!

UNO, I have always loved your messages. & I love you more. :)
Dear world, treasure every second whiles it last; it won’t come back. :)

`fimaaa

❤ imperfectly written at 10:46 AM

Monday, November 24, 2008

:) moving away
current mood: mundane

Nights back, under the moonlight, we held hands while strolling along the river. I saw nature and architecture at its best, yet I was not amazed. That night, it was not about nature or how wonderful the structures complimented each other; that night was about the treasure I held tight in my hand. Silently I prayed that the night would not end. The seconds were perfect, the minutes felt like they were mine. But the more the hours passed, the more I dreaded time. That night, I had you in my arms. That night, I fell for you again. I had hopes for tomorrow not coming and the night, not ending. Foolish, I know I was.
The next day came, I could not stop fate. I felt little, I felt so small. I burned my eyes with ignominious tears. The familiar pathway will become unknown. The routine will soon be gone. I know am stronger than this, I'll learn to adapt to these changes. But just how much more changes must I take?
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Dear God

AX7

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line

Miles away from those I love purpose hard to find

While I recall all the words you spoke to me

Can't help but wish that I was there

Back where I'd love to be, oh yeah

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is

to hold her when I'm not around

when I'm much too far away

We all need that person who can be true to you

But I left her when I found her

And now I wish I'd stayed

'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired

I'm missing you again oh no

Once again

There's nothing here for me on this barren road

There's no one here while the city sleeps

and all the shops are closed

Can't help but think of the times I've had with you

Pictures and some memories will have to help me through, oh yeah

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is

to hold her when I'm not around

when I'm much too far away

We all need that person who can be true to you

I left her when I found her

And now I wish I'd stayed

'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired

I'm missing you again oh no

Once again

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I know I am the biggest disappointment to the people who cares enough about me; so please do yourself a favour, get away from me.

Dear UNO, if only I was much bigger and stronger to change our fate, maybe then we can be like before. Circumstances might have changed, but my feeling is all the same, I still love you. :)

Dear world, My weekend was fantastic; Saturday with the boy, Sunday with the family. & yes, pictures of Sunday to be posted on the new site SOON (or maybe soon enough). :)

`fimaaa

❤ imperfectly written at 4:26 PM

Thursday, November 20, 2008

:) rewind & pause
Current mood: care-less

If I had a time machine, I’d have make time stand still when you are by my side, and when nothing else matters.
If I had a time machine, I’d have rewind and play back all our time spent together, so I can see you smile over and again.
If I had a time machine, I’d have pause every time your skin touch mine, and make it all last longer.
If I had a time machine, I’d have stop time when I am in your arms, just so I can stay in there forever.

But I don’t have a time machine. I can’t rewind, pause or play time. So I’ll live by telling myself every moment that your smile is why I am here, your touch is why I am me, YOU are why I am happy and I know you will always be there for me.
I kept our memories in my heart, and although I don’t have a time machine, I am sure I’ll relive these precious moments because you created them with me.

The days have been beautiful with you. And the moments means much more. Thank you.

UNO, 9-teen was as perfect as it should be. Thank you. ILY.
Dear world, although I am stuck in this metropolitan world, I am the happiest 9-teen year old because I have my family, friends and MBF with me, always. Go, hate me or envy me, love me or despise me, I can’t care less. :)

`fimaaa

❤ imperfectly written at 2:17 PM

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

:) routine
Current mood: :(

If work is not dull, maybe I’ll consider it as a full time thing. I constantly need to be pushed, if not kicked to stay on my toes.

I need therapy, entertainment or maybe a time machine to fast forward this. Pronto baby, because I am loosing it.

UNO, somehow I know tomorrow will be better with you by my side. I am half way there, please continue holding my hand. :)
Dear world, if there is one thing I learnt out of this, it's this -
Life is not fair, better get use to it.

`fimaaa

❤ imperfectly written at 2:19 PM

Sunday, November 16, 2008

:) Date with Mommy
Current mood: beat

Work's dragging me down and I've missed my mother. After granny's we both headed town and had a whole lot of good fun. I made mommy's cash disappear from her purse. It's a cool trick that I am sure many have learned and mastered. :þ

Of course the rest of the pictures are at the new site. :)

I have to make public apologies to 3 people;
Firstly, I made mommy's cash fly during dinner, I am sorry mommy.
Secondly, boy with white tee, shorts and soda all over, I am sorry stranger.
Lastly, kind man with mop and bucket, I am sorry you had extra chores.

Now, I am sure you all can guess what happened during dinner. The butter in my fingers won't leave me alone since I was a kid. And maybe lady luck was just not there for all of us. Other than that, my night was woderful. I love mommy! :)

UNO, the best was the call saying "the boy did not bathe and so it's not your fault." You can turn tables round and round and carve a smile on me. &Oh, ILY for that. :)
Dear World, make sunshine come faster, I am missing it. :)

`fimaaa

❤ imperfectly written at 1:23 AM

Friday, November 14, 2008

:) A month updates
Current mood: sleepy

The blog has once again been ignored. But the tagboard has finally seen its share of fun, and I look forward to the next comment. UNO was fantastic when he heard the news; he turned the tables around for me and became the boy I never knew. He made me smile and laugh like an infant, while whispering to my ears, “I won’t let anyone bring you down.”
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The typical updates now for my readers to read (though I believe that I am the only fan of my blog)

Birthday celebration and Hari Raya open house was great on the 27th; friends and family came over bringing joy to my occasion. It was birthday with sister, so now hear me say, HAPPY BIRTHDAY HANNA! Mommy was most kindest to hire a helper for the day, just so sis and me can go have fun. Granny was there helping with the preparations. The cake was supereb thanks to my sis and herBF. Meeting my ever so lovely poly gunnduus and the ever so rocking secondary pals have been highlight of the day. The best of all was the lovely surprise MBF gave me. He came, stayed till late and met the family. Whole of it. Thank you all. :)

29th came, but it fell on a Wednesday. Everyone at work was extra kind, letting me off the hook for many things. MBF came to fetch me, we had a lovely night and when it was time to go, he promised a Saturday that I will never forget.

SATURDAY finally came, after so long. My heart was pumping so loudly that day. I screamed of joy, of happiness! LOVE made me a princess and I was running around. I had fun, I was loved. It’s now became a memory, the sweetest so far. :) “CABERUL-CAR” was my favourite of all. Thank you for a whole week of fun, I had him coming every night for me after work. :)
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Currently, I am work. Counting down days till I am free from the chores of keeping up with dates and deadlines. This is definitely not the choice of career for my future. I have craved out various choices for myself, just hoping that I would not end up disappointing myself by not achieving any of the paths. God, bless me more please.

& I LOVE my family & MBF, UNO. :)

Ouhg, one more thing. My multiply is up again. I don't know how long that will last, let's just sit and see if my fingers itch again in the future.

UNO, you have been the best of friend. I love sitting, lauging and rotting with you. I love seeing sparkels in your eyes when you laugh with me and AT me. You, my sunshine, always. :) ILY.

Dear world, I won't know how much longer I will take for the next entry. Just do drop by every now and then. Who knows, I have some gossips to share. :þ Till then, have a very good Friday. And thank god for it, last working day of the week. Oh, the joy.

PS: 9-teen is coming again! Oh boy, don't you love that number!

`fimaaa

❤ imperfectly written at 10:32 AM